Hmmm.....I have finally found something interesting to write again!! This is about me and my crushes, 1579 in all! (Of course that’s a lie yaar!) Before starting I just want to make few things really clear...after reading this may be you feel I am a really big flirt who just keeps surfing between chicks you playboy kinda guy BUT THATS NOT ME! I just don’t hide my feelings and want to enjoy my life to the fullest! Of course I flirt but I have full respect for the more powerful half of this world! (With all dat reservation u babes have got, females definitely are more powerful.........again wid all due respect!)



And I know this has become a bit long but I never cut down on my words because then I feel I am restricting my emotions! It'll interesting nevertheless so go on! Let’s start.



I had two crushes till I reached class XI. First one was in class second. Then in class fourth on a girl who used to go with me to school!! Anyways it all started in class XI. The first serious crush was on a girl who was new to my school. Lets call her A (I would not use any names cos I don’t want them to hate me!!) I wasn’t really that confident by then when it came to proposing a girl!! But I did it nevertheless. It took her a days time to decide.......her answer was a YES and it only lasted for two days....the only benefit I got from this relationship was that she completed my whole days notes (instead of her own)in school when I was absent!!! Somehow it didn't work out after two days so I don’t really count this one as an affair... But she's still a good friend. In the mean while another girl proposed my best friend, Alok, but he was not interested. Even he doesn’t know but once she told me that it'd be great if WE (I and she) could be together!! Then, after three months, came the real serious one...I have heard a lot about holiday romances (all of us have) but never really expected it to happen to me. We had our school trip to Shimla and there I got close to a "friend". Let’s call her B.



You girls will never understand how difficult it’s for a guy to propose a friend!!!! You chicks have a common answer 99/100 times which makes our life really difficult "Oh! We're just friends!!" Anyways I still managed to ask her and she kept me waiting for a month!!! I was screwed all the time but I didn’t know the tricks then so I waited...finally she said YES. I wont go into the relationship cos I am telling you only about the proposes! All I can say is that I LEARNT A LOT from this one and finally when it ended after six months I knew all the rules of the game, mistakes which i wont commit again. I had good times and i had bad times. But the latter was more frequent so i ended it. But I must admit I was bloody upset when we had a break up!! And those who have gone thru this would understand how it feels, terrible to be precise. However I did pretty good things in school, led the school parade on republic day and won second prize, secured 92% marks in XII so things went off pretty well. Now comes the most interesting one. I finally decided that now I am going to play it safe. There’s a girl whom I consider my best friend. She really understands me well, we never have fights are very open and close to each other. I didn’t want to go thru all the breakup shit and it’s after effects again so I finally zeroed in on her cos I felt that it just can’t get any better! We would never have fights…………..blah blah blah and built my Cinderella story (I mean the male version of it!)



We had to go to see a movie (Taxi No. 9211) and I decided that I would pop up the question just 15 minutes before the movie starts so that if any thing goes wrong she’d be alright after watching the movie! (Look at my crisis management!! It didn’t work though!) The most funny thing was that I thought this time I wont have any problem in saying those words and proposing her cos I have said it twice before!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(WARNING: Over confidence is injurious.) I choked…my heart was in my mouth ...and I was really nervous because I just didn’t want any thing to go wrong with our beautiful friendship (This always is the case with all the boys!!) Finally this is what I could manage:
Me: “hey! Can’t we be more than just friends???”
She: [after 3 minutes and 17 seconds] “No, I think we are good the way we are!”



Man, I wish I could dig and bury myself!! That’s was the first time I slept watching a movie. (I finally realized how good movie it was when I watched it again two months later.) And for the first time I found out how long our movies really are!!! She seemed to be unaffected though, enjoying the music, movie, John Abraham everything!!!



That day was one of the most depressing days I have lived! First I was shattered because I never really expected this. She was my best friend and knew me very well. I thought if the person who knows me really well rejects my proposal, there’s something wrong me. Secondly, I had met a girl on the internet and we had become good friends. She had asked for my pic and I had emailed it to her. I came back home dejected only to find her mail that I wasn’t good looking enough to match up her high standards. (She’s a great friend now!)



Sone par suhaga!!!!



Anyways the best thing I like about me is that after every bad phase in my life, I get up and become the same happy and optimistic person again. So I am back to my best living and enjoying life. Now coming to why I wrote this blog. Actually I read a quote somewhere recently which said "The greatest comedian is the one who can laugh on himself." That’s what inspired me. But this is not my shot at being the greatest comedian.....actually I wanted to test my courage and see whether I can be true to everyone or not!!



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Take care. (And wait for my next!)
ACP.